youth work

More experience
Less enthusiasm
That is the balance this year.

New school year has started and we need to plan what to do with the youth work (activities for young people) in our church this year.
When I joined the church, the youth activities I had an oportunity to participate were great way how to grow in faith and how to learn many things. Now - after almost 5 years I can't just sit and see that nothing happends. Everybody just say - oh it would be good if something would be done. But nobody has time or will to do something.
Luckily, there is a girl that has agreed to take the leadership and I am ready to help her. So tomorrow we will have a meeting also with other people that could do something.
We have tried to do something like that also last year. Results: there was a team meeting. But when we came to real action - for most of the persons there were more important things to do. Ok, I know that people are busy but it is so sad to be taken away with some idea and to see almost no support from others :(
Last year was hard. I think the quality of this work was below the one I dreamed about and it really took a lot of efforts and steeled some hours of sleep. But it wasn't fruitless. I know there are many gains we can't imagine but there were also we could see - there are at least one girl who has strengthened her believe and I think that youth work helped.
So for this year.. Everything in front of us. All possibilities :)


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consequences

One thing leads to another. Simple but amazing thruth. I think about some great things and opportunities I have today and I have them because some time ago in the past I have met some people, we have talked about something and.. So it goes on. We hear some offer and always there is a choise - to say 'yes' or 'no'. And the consequences of that decision to accept something or not - those can be seen maybe only after years.

I love the oportunity to study what I study (hm.. if I didn't have bad mark in economics many years ago that caused me to prove the teacher that I can do better - would I have felt in love with this subject?)

I love the work I am doing (I don't know if it is a really good job, but I love it. It's something close to my dream job - I am a research analyst. It couldn't happend if I wouldn't left my previous job that was good but not close to my dreams)

I love Proem and I would really like to spend 7 months there serving youth and children. I don't know if it is possible but anyway I had a great experience this summer and hope to go back there again. Maybe all my lifre would be different if before 5 years in one youth meeting one boy Lauris wouldn't share his experience - spending a summer in the USA in the child camps. Then I first realized I want to do something like that. Lauris isn't alive anymore. But this one meeting and conversation changed a lot in my life.




Thinking. Every thing, every choise leads to some consequences.

Most of the time we don't know what the consequences would be (ha, is that something new??) No. I even don't try to say something new. I am just amazed sensing and seeing at leat something from this big picture.

...in an open palm

I wonder what will happend next? In this one day I have experienced great happiness because of hearing 'congratulations' - I am selected for a job I really wanted to do. And then - just a couple of hours later suspence and doubt if everything can be solved in the way that I would be able to do that work (oh, 'just' technical problems).
I was thinking about the idea one my friend Maris was teaching - you are receiving things from God. Say thanks, but still keep them in an open palm - ready to give them back to Him.
I thought - ouch, yeah, I am ready to give that gift I was excited about back to Lord, but why should that happend so fast - already IN THE SAME DAY???
Now I have solved those problems (I hope so), but I'm not so sure that everything will just manage to be without difficulties. I don't know what will happend next. I think I will need a lot of chocolate and even more prayers.

Step by step

There are moments when you don't know what will happend next and what is worse - it is hard just to take a deep breath and wait. B
During the last camp we had hiking in the night and we had 3 torches for 6 people. I hadn't mine so in the forests I had just to follow others that tried to show the way. On the road it was easy - just to take the direction and walk - full of trust and hope that there won't be any pits in the road. In the forest it was much harder. There was no road, even not a normal path. Trees were fallen not only all around but also in our way. Branches of the trees were everywere hitting the walkers and rushing in our heads, pouring water into the eyes.
But we had to walk to reach the destination. At first the unusual situation paralised me and I thought it is impossible to walk if you don't see almost anything! But then step by step I learnt to trust other persons. I just grabbed one my friend Gunda by hand and followed her. Step by step. Not knowing what will follow, not knowing where we are and what is in our road. Step by step. And we made it! After a long way and many hours we reached the finish and felt both exausted and happy for those things we have done.
ut that is how it is arranged - we can learn to trust God who is way smarter than we are and that sees the big picture. There are many changes in my life right now and I don't know what will happend next. I am affraid to be hurt if I make some wrong move but in the same time I don't want to stand where I am just because I am scared of mistakes. So I grab His hand and move - step by step. Not knowing where the path leads and what is in my road. Step by step trusting Him and following where He will lead me.