just amazing...

...how God organizes things. I had often heard people sharing their testimonies how just in the right time smth happens. Some that made me think - OK, but it will never happen to me - were stories about finance - like when you really need some
money and you can't imagine there is a possibility to get it and then
somethinghappens. Just accident? Maybe, but Christians now that there aren't such thing as just an accident.

Ok, why I am telling that - 2 days ago first time in my life I used
overdraft and the next income were expected only in the middle of December
(if everything goes OK). I am not used to be in debt but I am not going
to ask money from my family as well. So paying bills, food, transport..


Of course I didn't feel good in such an situation but the oddest thing - I was worried about that 2 month ago when I saw that something like that is going to happen. Only then I thought it will happen
in a month but I have lived so far. And now when I saw that I am really
close to the situation when I am without money, I just found out that
tomorrow or day after that I will receive a scholarship for 2 months!

Just in the perfect time - when I really
need that money and just amazing that is the sum I need to live tillfebruary (when I go away)

And one more time I have to say - that is amazing to realize how God
organizes things. I can't believe that it is just an accident. When I
trust Him that He will take care of me, He did! That is a wonderful
feeling.

Zako-place

Here is something more from this summer. A picture showing those cute cabs of Zakosciele.



Now the documents are ready and the EU is ready to finance this project so (if nothing really changes), then in February I will go back there for 7 months. Hard to believe that! :)

Yeah, I know I want that. Still there are million things that make it hard - studies, job, home, friends... Luckily there are two million reasons that makes it easier. One of them - I really want to experience that and if not now, then never. If already now it is hard, later it would be impossible :)

balloons again

Sometimes it is great to come over your fears and see the results. I have been afraid of making smth out of balloons, more precise - the fact that they can blow in my hands.
This summer I got over that and learned at least some basics. Now I have also teached that to some kids. That's great! :)

Are ideals dead?

Where are the people strugling for their ideals? Why are they thought to be syupid and naive?

Maybe I am stupid and I can say for sure that I am naive because I believe there are some things that are worth sacrifise. Things that are so important to you that you can give up prosperity or anything you have. Otherwise I think people just believe in that prosperity not the ideals they claim to follow.

Idealist. Naive. Happy with that.

I don't understand

I heard a story about one men. He said:

I got a message and a horse. I killed the horse and weren't able to deliver the message.

He was enthusiastic and eager but died young.

I was thinking and can't come to any conclusion. OK, you should care of yourself, but... BUT

BUT I think many people are just caring about saving that horse, not delivering the message

Sometimes I feel that I spend too much of my energy and there is nothing much left. But isn't that the only way that you can feel that you are really doing your best to deliver that message? I don't know. I am confused... :(